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I love it when I am all stirred up to write something. Nowadays I just cannot bring myself to write about random things happening in my life. I got to be emoting in order to be blogging, I guess.

What is it with people who vaguely know me to judge me as hot-tempered? Yes. I am someone who easily gets irritated, I throw temper tantrums once in a while and I do get infuriated with people who cannot get the simplest things right even if it might be something I might make mistakes at. (Blame my dad, probably passed down from him, that is if genetics play a role) I am a true-blue bitch, so sue me.

Why am I suddenly talking about this? Well, I guess it is because people had me thinking, am I that evil?? Do I look that scary?? I did not even know that I look like someone who is going to bite your head off when you ask me something. If I do look like that then I guess that is what makes me Rajeswari Sambasivam.

I used to have serious issues with my temper. However, I know myself (I do not need anyone to justify me) that I have changed a little. I control my emotions more then ever.

I am sick of people thinking twice to say something to me because they think that I might flare up at them. I am sick of people ASSUMING my reactions to be always mixed with anger.

If I irritate you or if I nag you there is a reason for it. It goes beyond a mere relationship to understand that part of a person. One would only be a pain in someone else's life when they TRULY care for that person.

There is only one person who will know how I feel being me and that is..... me. It applies for every other individual. When people say, "I know how you feel truly," the truth is they do not. No one does! The degree of emotions varies when you are the first person as compared to someone who is standing by and watching.

I did not start this out to let people know that I am not as mean and scary as they think I am. I just wanted to let it out. No objectives or underlying meanings intended.

This is how I am. I do not pretend about how I feel towards you. I do not try TOO hard to like you if I have started disliking you. I do not put up a false front to make you happy.

I do bitch about people if I feel like it. It is actually a kind of stress reliever you know. I do have negative feelings about many things and express them subtly if necessary. I do make direct, sarcastic remarks when I feel agitated. I do go all out for the people whom I truly care for. I do try hard to impress those that are high on my list. I do look past all the flaws of my loved ones and love them even more, like how they do for me. I do at times be a pain in everyone’s necks. If you cannot live with it then I suggest you do not. :)


Before people out there go around trying to figure out whom or to which incident I am directing this blog at: DISCLAIMER- The contents of this entry do not speak of anyone in particular or of any incident for that matter. If any feelings of hurt are instilled in any individual as a result of this entry, please refrain from reading it again. (: This entry is merely the expression of the blogger’s feelings.

After all is that not what a blog is for?


PS. DURGA! I still cannot put up that sentosa video!! ARGH!