Well.. I feel so much better today. I thought I will feel great after last night's sleep but I didn't. After rotting at home I headed to the temple in the evening and then went to Dinesh's cousin sister's birthday party. Initially I was half-hearted but eventually I went and thankfully my spirits lifted.Poor D is sick and i have caught a flu as well (not from him i hope).

Devan helped to perk me up in the wee hours of the morning today even though he was sick. So sweet. There have been times when I have thought of ending what we have between us but his persistence and comforting words always put me back on track. Still, only my lips say to let go not my heart. Of course I will be INSANE to let him go coz he's such a GEM. Only the both of us know what our relationship has been through, is going through and will go through and it amazes me when he seems unfazed by it. Finding true love is hard but to keep it going strong is harder. I will be utterly lost without you sweetheart.